Hi everybody. Thanks for coming back to read these Blogs. Today I have some thoughts on my mind that I have been ruminating over for a while. This morning I was thinking about how bogged-down I feel when I let thoughts of my worries or other people's poor behavior toward me, get me down. I bet everyone reading this has had this experience before. Some of you go through it on a daily basis, riding the waves of the next emotional cue from a friend, lover or co-worker. You wonder how your day will go and what you will accomplish based on a set of variables over which you seem to have no control! If you cannot restrict the negative experience from happening you feel you are going to be victimized by it. This is a side-effect of our Third Dimensional Consciousness. What this means is that in our Flesh and Bones body and experiences, we believe the outside situations are in control. But the ACTUAL truth is that what we THINK about is in control. Our THOUGHTS are in control. Our thoughts can get out of control, but this we have the ability to manage and alter. What we lack is the conviction to use this ability consistently and effectively.
I have not met many people in my lifetime who are MORE emotional than me! I am the most irrational, emotional, anxiety-ridden, easily-offended person I know! This is a pretty tough list I just made. I become agitated, annoyed, depressed, confused, upset and indecisive repeatedly throughout my day, everyday. This way of living is very UN-spiritual. I do make the effort to meditate regularly, read literature about these topics and use techniques to head-off some of these "mental attacks", but I truly am not succeeding. If I were succeeding, so many parts of my life right now would reflect it and I could see all of my wonderful success and I would be living my life in the LIGHT and with Blessings that were visible. But what I see in my life is that there is some Love. There is some sharing. There is some hope and some faith. But there is also conflict. There is depression and sadness. There is confusion and there are dreams that are unfulfilled. This is not the plan of the creator but the aftermath of the destruction of the ego. In specific...my ego.
Let's talk about the idea of Mental Attacks. When I say this, I am referring to that voice in our thoughts that tells us things that are unhealthy for a Spiritual mind. The voice says we are not good enough. It says that HE thinks I am not good enough. It tells me that HE (or she) doesn't want me because I am not good enough and for some reason, not being wanted becomes the ultimate suffering. From there we start the downhill slide. So let's correct this thought together. How we correct this thought...the technique we will use...will be the tool for fixing other similar thoughts. So the person we love has let us down because they are not demonstrating the amount of attention towards us we wanted. Perhaps it is that we do not get the quantity of attention we hoped for, or attention in the right venues or situations. Perhaps they just don't use the words we want to hear or don't make us feel what we want them to make us feel. When I word it this way, does it make it easier for you to identify the problem? In these conditions, WE (the receiver) are perceiving that we lack something because it was not given to us. Also, WE (the receiver) are playing the part of a victim because we had an expectation but we were let down or rejected, hence victimized. In this scenario, WE (the receiver) are selfish and we want someone or something to give us the feeling of being fulfilled. Expecting other people to give us fulfillment is a trap that will leave us sad and empty.
There is another person on the other end of this scenario. If WE are the Receiver then that automatically makes THEM the Giver. They (the Giver) don't know that we are waiting for them to do or say something so that WE(the receiver) can perceive that WE are happy or fulfilled. Our Creator, The Light...is a Giver and we are all little vessels that receive some of the Light from the Giver of Light. But we were created to BE like the Creator and so that means that we receive Light but also we GIVE or SHARE it too. The Light does not give any less or more to any one vessel. There is abundance of it for all. But our vessel has to be the right SHAPE to receive, hold, and then share it. When our friends, lovers and co-workers or family members share light with us, it is the same thing. We must receive it but also share it. So as you can see from our previous exercise about the emotional, third dimensional person...such a person has decided that they are one or the other but not both. They BELIEVE 9wrongly) that they can only be a Giver or a Receiver and they choose one side. They then do not feel fulfilled because they were never supposed to be on just one side but they were supposed to be BOTH!
Anyone who is in a romantic relationship knows that if only one partner gives while the other receives all the time, then this coupleship will not last. Even the most giving person will grow weary and fed-up at never receiving what they always give out. Both partners must SHARE the LIGHT they receive from their Inner Purpose when they connect with their Creator. THAT Light should exist for the both of them to use together, and not for one side to use while the other gets nothing. A lot of people do not see this and they do not see the role in their own relationships correctly. There is a lot of disbalance when one person in a coupleship has emotional imbalances such as depression or anxiety. These types of conditions need treatment, focus and correction if the people affected by them are going to have any chance at being healthy and fulfilled.
I hope what I have shared helps others to understand this difficult condition that exists when we LIVE our lives EMOTIONALLY rather than in a Consciously-Driven way. We CAN control those emotions. We CAN adjust our thoughts. We CAN heal past hurts, no matter how bad they were. One of the key ways to do that is to simply let go of the past. When you let it go and do not give it any more energy of thought, it can be released from your consciousness. But when you do this, do not leave any sick limb hanging around because it will come right back into your life. Whatever the issue that is holding you back, you must be brave and heal the wound. You can do it. I know you can. Pray for me and I will Pray for you. Share your Love and you hopes with the people around you but most importantly, ask others to do the same with you.
Love Everyone and Be Blessed,
Lilac
so true...
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