2013 Warm Welcome to Love

Hi everyone, I Love to be in Love and feel loved and show love.  Don't You? 
 I think we all inately experience this.  We all are made for love and peace.  Did you know that?  Do you believe that?  As much as we are all created to be loving, show love and experience love with our relationships, there is also much interference and guess who is responsible for it?  We ALL are.  It's not the Lovers vs the Fighters.  We are ALL the Lovers and we are ALL the Fighters.  We fight against love every minute of every day when we choose to let anger, fear, hatred, jealousy and many other kinds of loveless emotions pervade our thinking.  The truth is we create what we think about.

So I have put this blog to sleep...The TRUE-LOVE Blog was begun during a period in my life when I was exploring the ideas of Love, Romance, True Love, Twin Flames, SoulMates, Karmic Relationships and Friendships.  Today I was reviewing my blogs (I don't get as much time online as I used to) and I was drawn here.  I am often drawn here to this blog, because the strong emotions I felt as I explored these ideas really give me a breath of fresh air to write something inspiring.  Today I was looking for that little moment.

So what has 2013 brought for Lilac regarding Love and Life?  Well, let's actually have a look back and review.  Many friends and followers who read my blogs do know about some of my changes throughout the year 2012, but I (and they)probably have not looked at the year as a whole very closely and seen what a dramatic turn around has occurred.  It has been a Shift...2012 brought many of these for many lives, not just mine.

2012 January, February:  In the start of 2012 I was very involved in creating and managing my CBA Group activities along with my friends Sam, Bob and Alberta.  It was on or about January 11th that I was given the Divine Knowledge about Twin Flames.  I didn't know who it was but I knew that some people had one and I was supposed to be in a Twin Flame Relationship.  I recognized that my partner at that time was not that person, and that he and I were caught up in the endgame of a twisted Karmic Relationship.  I was ready to move on, but afraid because I have children and there were many threats being thrown around if I were to "try to leave".  So I focused on Self-Improvement through Personal Development practices such as Yoga, Meditation, Reading literature about PD and working in small groups focusing on certain aspects of character building.
2012 March:   As part of my future-planning, I was attempting to find myself an affordable vehicle and I reached out to a friend who I could trust to put me in a safe car.  That friend (from my past) was Jamie.  I realized by the end of the month that the Universe was drawing us together so that I could let him help me.  He had more resources than I knew he had to help me.
2012 April:  I had to ACT quickly to change my life.  I felt it was time and that I was losing connection with the time to do it and so I decided that I had to make some bold decisions.  I closed my home business and identified the exact day I wanted to leave the house.  The question was, where am I going ???  I tried to make many arrangements.  So many of my arrangements did not come together.  I knew that if I asked my Partner to leave the house he would not go.  I knew it would have to be me.
2012 May:  I told my Partner I was leaving.  He was furious.  I had nowhere to go so I was going with Jamie.  But by the end of the month, my partner had used his ability to twist my thinking and manipulate me to join his cause.  I left for a weekend to see my sister in Florida.  I flew there and back.  It was a big step for me but having a Blood-relative who loves you unconditionally, hear your story and give it validation (in person)...was priceless.  I came home and made a decision that instead of moving out of my house and going with Jamie, I would go to Florida.  Maybe I would stay there.  Maybe I would come back.  I wasn't sure.
2012 June:  I spent the month focused inward on my sad feelings of loss because I was doing what I was doing as a result of fear and not by choice.  I was listening to the ideas of another person who was compelling me to act in the way he felt I needed to.  I was afraid for my life and my children's lives.  I planned our trip to Florida.  I avoided Jamie.
2012 July:  The first week of July was a disaster and I felt more depressed then ever but once we got on the road to Florida it became a mix of wonderful and challenging.  I choose to remember the wonderful moments that occurred while my kids and I were able to explore and discover and spend time bonding with my sister Jessica and her family.
2012 August:  The hardest work I have ever had to do was what I did the first 2 weeks of August.  I had to free my mind of the programming that had changed my direction earlier in the year.  I sat down at my sister's Dining Room table each morning for nearly 3 weeks and studied, meditated, and did the REAL work to investigate what it was my HEART wanted.  I decided to stop being the effect and start being the cause (The Universal Law of Cause and Effect as taught by the International Kabbalah Center).  I returned to Rhode Island and moved out of my home a week later.
2012 September:  Attempting to keep my kids in the most normal life possible, I searched for a job while living in a friends basement with my children.  I allowed their father to see them.  I asked him for money.  I did everything I had to do.  I had Jamie by my side to help me this time.  He wasn't leaving.
2012 October:  Brilliant moments emerge in the darkest places sometimes.  The shift that 2012 was to bring us all was already happening and many hidden things were coming to light.  many people who had been "in power" were now losing their grip on those they held down.  My daughter spent a few days in a hospital bed and had a real turnaround there.  The Universal plan for her?  I am not sure, but I know that she needed to be humbled by that experience to know she could trust me.
2012 November:  Sometime in November I really learned to trust Jamie and our partnership.  On 11-11, I moved myself and my kids into his home.  Many, many many friends came to my side and his side to help us acquire a bunkbed, mattresses and other necessities to get our lives organized so that we could feel normal and take care of the kids.
2012 December:  Ending this year with a new home, a new family situation, and a new attitude...there were many ups and downs but one very valuable lesson.  Here is the lesson.  Here is what it is:

WE ARE ALL CONNECTED.  WHEN I SUFFER, YOU SUFFER.  WHEN YOU SUFFER, I SUFFER.  WHEN YOU GIVE I RECEIVE.  WHEN I GIVE, YOU RECEIVE.  We are here for each other.  We are all here for each other.  We are One.  We are one energy and that energy flows freely from person to person unless it is blocked by emotions that are LACKING in Love.  Let there be Love and the energy of love will flow freely to and from you.  Let there be anger, jealousy, hatred, VIOLENCE (of thought or action), and there will be a blockage of Love.

2013 January:  This chapter is under construction.

I love you all!  Love everyone and BE BLESSED,

Lilac (AngelMarie)